I took my first steps to going back to work last Wednesday, and again today when I was called back to cover some Board meetings. Easing myself in, in a sense, before I officially start next Friday.
I was in denial for most of the week before I forced myself to get all my things sorted the night before, and packed that instantly recognisable Medela PIS backpack. On a sidenote, I'm embarrassed that it's taken me having my 2nd child to realise you can pull the pump out of the bag. I'm on the look out for a nicer (and more chic) bag for pumping equipment, but for now, this will do.
It felt funny, putting on my work clothes and squeezing my feet back into my heels. Once I got to the office however, it was not difficult getting back in the groove. It felt like slipping back into a familiar routine. And yet, this second time round, my heart was still at home. I missed my babies -- Noey's chatter and Mimi's gummy smiles. Maybe it was because I didn't find my maternity leave as isolating an experience as I did the first time that the adult interaction or me-time in the office didn't make up for the time away. Possibly it is because my office isn't quite the place it was a couple of years ago.
Whatever the reason, it was a relief to come home to an excited Noey and a happy Naomi. They did really well on my first full day away. Mimi in particular was in good spirits the whole day, downing her bottles and bestowing smiles on all and sundry. Noey actually went down for his nap fairly easily, leading my brother to comment that it's just me who is ineffective at getting him to nap. Hah. I felt like I was the only one having the separation anxiety!
I guess it's a good thing I still only work part-time!
Saw this photo at the bottom of this post - how different they all look now! http://lifeisinthesmallthings.blogspot.com/2009/11/4-do-noeys.html
ReplyDeleteI used a large Kate spade coal Tracy as my pump bag, which was also kate's diaper bag... It's the only one that's roomy enough, other than my PISA messenger bag...
Haha, indeed, it really seems as if mummy has the separation anxiety more.
ReplyDeleteAs for me, I wonder why the little ones are more difficult to "manage" when Im home. So much so my mum tells me - u better dont work from home. And she tries to feed nat dinner before we come back cos nat usually fusses more when we are around!
I think kids just know who they can bully - Sean usually acts up when I am around too!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great, babe!
huh!! same with me! kristy is sooooo guai and good with my mum but when i'm at home, hell breaks loose!
ReplyDeletesame with Ian! my helper puts him down easily but with me, rock until cows come home!
I totally relate! This was my first week back at work, and boy I was having cold sweat on Day #1. Didn't help that baby decided to reject the bottle the very first day... Thk goodness I had the mind to keep it a short week and kinda ease myself back into things. Nice post! :P
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